Day 52 of writing Me Here Without You Now

Me Here Without You is going on quite well. I really like it. It’s kind of theraputic for me, it is. There are certain experiences from my life that I’ve packages into different but similar experiences for my characters and going through them again from another perspective is proving healing for me. So, I write and I cry and I laugh when I write something funny and then cry again. Which is honestly a strange process if you think about it, as you are the writer and the reader at the same time, the creator and the consumer. Wonder if all writers go through this. Probably the professional ones just think about how well they’ve written something and how the readers are going to love this part and that part, admiring their art. I do think about my readers as well but doing this for the first time and doubting myself so much, it’s hard for me to imagine people actually reading it and much easier to just allow myself to be a reader and enjoy the journey. Even if this book is never published, it has already given me so much, offered so much healing, allowed me to accept myself, made me overcome my self-doubt (or at least begin my journey towards overcoming it) and much more. Taking it step at a time.

Haven’t read much more of Waypoints, just didn’t have the time for it.

Now Outlander, that’s a different story. So sad. Claire gave birth to the stillborn baby, which was clear from the beginning as when she goes back to the future, she doesn’t have a baby. I think they need to be without a baby for now. Jamie was in prison. Then days (or was it weeks?) after giving birth Claire goes to the king and bargains for Jamie’s release. There’s this whole subplot and two characters that I won’t even get into and she has to kill one of them but doesn’t, nevertheless the bad person dies. Claire has to sleep with the king (kept thinking about postpartum bleeding and the fact that the poor woman had JUST given birth to a stillborn baby and that this is technically yet another rape in the story) in order for Jamie to be released from prison. It works, she lies back and thinks of England (well, Jamie) and Jamie is released and they go back to Scotland with Prince Charlie, where the latter hopes to become the king and C&J also want him to become the king but they know that the Scots will lose at the Battle of Culloden, so they are trying to divert the plan but it all seems to be leading towards it. Whenever time travel is involved, they’re always trying to change the future but it’s never possible. Because that’s a good story. The reader or viewer knows the outcome, knows the price, the cost and all you have to do is show the path to it. That’s why books with tragic endings are so rereadable because it’s interesting to see it again and find new detail in how it ended up the way it did. And if we didn’t know the outcome, there would be no real stakes.

My story Me Here Without You Now is written in the same way. You know how it ends, you know from the very beginning she is without him now but you don’t know how she got to that point. I think in terms of an outline, it’s a good story. I sure hope someone else will like it too.